Archive for February, 2010

The Gift That Keeps on Getting

Posted in Uncategorized on February 3, 2010 by Darlene Cunningham

Valentine’s Day.  Typically a holiday I feel is forced on people.  I give my girlfriend gifts all the time.  What’s so special about February 14th?  Quite frankly, I need a break from required gift giving.  I don’t want to buy presents this year.  I’d like to spend some money on myself.

All I am likely to recieve is some gift I don’t really want.  Most likely some knick knack because my girlfriend doesn’t even know me.  And, I will have to act all grateful.  It’s like that ugly sweater your grandmother gave you when you were a kid.  Seriously, after a year and a half of spending every free moment together (bc she freaks if we don’t) shouldn’t she have some sort of clue as to what I like?

I am so unbelievably frustrated right now.  I don’t want to spend a bunch of money on something she will just complain about anyway even though she has been begging for it.  She always finds a reason to complain.   *sigh*

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Life on Our Own

Posted in Uncategorized on February 1, 2010 by Darlene Cunningham

Living alone with someone can be burdensome sometimes.  without my former roommate to distract us, all we have are the kids and each other to interact with.  Most of the time that is good, but at other times it is really bad.  All my frustrations and fears get taken out on her because there is no where else for me to focus it.  At the same time, now I don’t have to worry about offending someone if I just want to cuddle on the couch and watch a movie.

I am not used to not working.  I am really stressed by not having money coming in (on my end.)  I feel like I am taking advantage.  I still have my child support and I paid a bunch of bills in advance so that we could survive semester to semester, but I am terrified she will be  overwhelmed.  She won’t leave me, but she will be angry, sullen, and unhappy.  I don’t want to be the cause of someone’s unhappiness.